Thorns among the Barbs

Thoughts on my journey to heaven

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Things are not as they appear

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How many times have we looked at a friend who smiled, was cordial, and warm, loving, and yet their heart was breaking apart?  How many times have we looked at a totally devistating situation and only seen the devistation, and not the opportunity to rebuild.  things are not as they always seem. 

i am telling myself this today because it is the sunniest day outside, with a gentle breeze blowing into the windows, and yet my heart wants to ruminate on loss and grief, of the struggles, and not the god who is making the sun shine.

I want so badly to just change the channel on this life i am living because the story is hard, and the struggle is real… but then i hear him say that the testing of my faith works patience and let patience complete her perfect work.  OK, you got me.  You look down and know what rough edges need to be sanded down, and what needs to be polished, or what surgery needs to happen to refashion me in your image.  I dont want to be the clay telling the potter what to do.  I yield all to you God.  Make my life new, precious, and in the image of your son.  You have taken so much from me, yet i will praise you because i realize what i clinged to was not necessary.  So things are not as they appear.  You know why the doors remain closed, and work is not happening, and you know why we are down to the dregs of savings and living on the fumes… but you know the best plan for us.  Yielded i cry out please dont leave me this way.  Give me dignity, purpose, life.  Give me the ability to pay my bills, and have daily bread. (and gas!)

Written by Barbara Bloom

May 30, 2012 at 10:14 AM

Living by faith, not by sight

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I keep getting reminded to not look at or put stock in what i see, because my mind wants to lie to me… the news tells me the scary things, the world tells me that if i am not a certain size, or have white teeth i dont fit in.  But then i open the word of god and my lord tells me another story… he tells me that i am his beloved, that he has called me by name, has chosen me before the foundation of the world, and he has purposed my life for knowing him, loving him, living for him.  His life, the life that the word speaks of is not always visible, tangible, or spoke of by the world….. so this living by faith is a challenge. 

When i think of faith i turn to the book of Hebrews 11, the “Hall of Faith” chapter.  And i think all of us want to live in the first half of that chapter, where glorious glowing examples of faith like moses and abraham live…. but the chapter ends with stories of struggle, hardship, and even death for the faith…. and few of us want that… These days it has felt like we live in the end of hebrews 11, with some beaten, some tortured, and some put to death.  I think now of the many persecuted christians world wide, and pray for strength for them.  And i realize that it may be our time too.  Are we strong enough to stand the crucible of trial, of torture, of death, to live for Jesus?

“Lord, first thank you for loving us, for calling us, for calling us to be your beloved.  May we draw closer and closer to you.  And as we do, may you strengthen your believers world wide.  may those in direct harm stand for you, and draw all men to you through their faithfulness to Christ.  Stand in their presence, draw their captors to you, compel those who oppose you to bow to your authority, and leadership.  Rise up big in the church, captivate our hearts, use us to build your kingdom.  We stand free in a nation that is slowly erroding from freedom, and thank you that you still permit freedom here.  Grant your people boldness and wisdom, grace and power to reach this world for your name. And may we live by every word that proceeds out of your mouth.  Amen.”

Written by Barbara Bloom

May 8, 2012 at 11:06 AM