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Covenant Prayer of John Wesley

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I love the legacy of christian history, and the prayers of those who went before us. I never before heard this prayer until i read Kay Warren’s book and the concept of surrender spoke so strongly to me. Here is the prayer.

Covenant Prayer
From John Wesley’s Covenant Service , 1780

I am no longer my own, but thine.
Put me to what thou wilt, rank me with whom thou wilt.
Put me to doing, put me to suffering.
Let me be employed by thee or laid aside for thee,
exalted for thee or brought low for thee.
Let me be full, let me be empty.
Let me have all things, let me have nothing.
I freely and heartily yield all things
to thy pleasure and disposal.
And now, O glorious and blessed God,
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit,
thou art mine, and I am thine. So be it.
And the covenant which I have made on earth,
let it be ratified in heaven. Amen.

All I can say is Amen, Lord Jesus. Everything about this prayer spoke to the despirate need in my heart to accept his will in my life.


Written by Barbara Bloom

February 7, 2010 at 2:20 AM

Coming to the end of myself

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I must confess that the title of this post is something I have given little thought to, or previously had a very different view of its true meaning. With our financial crisis I have learned that my life is not my own, and i have come to the end of my resources, finding myself yielding the scraps of what is left to the mighty hands of the lord. I am helpless to change my situation apart from the direct intervention of the lord himself.

So I have come to the end of myself. is that so bad? or is there a new freedom in surrendering wholey and completely to a God whose character is good, and holds everything in his sovereign hands.

I have just finished reading “Dangerous Surrender: What Happens When You Say Yes to God” by Kay Warren, so the concept of surrender is burning on my heart. In fact, everything I have heard, or read these past weeks has focused on complete surrender. I am compelled to realize the call of God on my life to surrender… to loosen and remove my grasp from my life. As Kay Warren said, the kingdom of me must die. But I am a slow learner or perhaps a very selfish lover of my kingdom. But I must love the king, Jesus, more than I love myself. So the cry of my heart is that I want to yield everything to him afresh, lay down the life I have known, willingly embrace what he leads me to.

So Father, here i am, sitting before you and crying out to you that I want to yield everything back to you, but I am fearful, and so limited in my capacity to learn. You have given me the gift of faith, and the glorious hope of salvation. Forgive my unbelief, forgive my fear. I have loved the life I have known, but this is not the place you want me in. You want my surrender, and nothing less. Please take me deeper, lead me on to the place you have ordered for me. Grant that I might have faith to trust you and trust your good hand in my life. Amen

Written by Barbara Bloom

February 6, 2010 at 2:06 AM

What am I reading now? Learning to Fly Again

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I have always shared a passion for missions and world evangelism. In fact at one point in our lives we were actively pursuing the first steps to candidate for a church planting mission agency. That said, I have also remembered praying for various missionaries in distress. In 2001 a non-descript missionary couple serving in the Phillapeanes were taken hostage, and held captive for over a year. When the Phillapean government liberated them the husband, Martin, was killed by their bullets. Gracia was left to return to the states and begin to rebuild her life with their 3 children.

Gracia Burnham has written two books – the first was an account of that year of captivity. (Yes, I read this immediately after it came out) The second is what I am reading now. The title of her secound book is “Learning to fly again“.

It was one of my forrays into books on tape – partly because I spend the majority of my work life reading computer screens and anything else required, and generally my eyes are weary for anything else.
But with the first disk in, and 5 minutes into the book I knew this was something the Lord himself wanted me to learn.

The back cover of the book sums it up well

“Is it possible to soar—not just survive—after life has knocked you down?
Like a violent microburst that threatens to down an aircraft, an unexpected crisis may rock your world and leave you wondering whether life—as you’ve known it anyway—is over.

Gracia Burnham understands those feelings. She and her husband, Martin, spent a horrific year as hostages among the Abu Sayyaf terrorists in the Philippines. She was rescued after a gun battle that killed her husband. When she returned to the United States, her life was filled with uncertainty.

In this book, Gracia Burnham reflects on how, by God’s grace, she is rebuilding her life. Using illustrations from the Burnhams’ year in the jungle, as well as her experiences since returning home, Gracia writes about the confusion, fear, anger, anxiety, and loss of control that all people in crisis experience. She also illustrates how God longs to pour his grace into people with broken dreams and fill their life with new meaning and joy.

You may be one of the many thousands of people who know the Burnhams’ story from Gracia’s first book, In the Presence of My Enemies. Or perhaps you are seeking direction and hope in the midst of your own crisis. Either way, after reading this book you’ll better understand why God’s sufficiency, grace, and peace are never so real as when you choose to trust him in the midst of pain and difficulty. – Taken from

I will keep you posted on the book and valuable lessons I am learning through this amazing book.

Written by Barbara Bloom

December 30, 2009 at 12:00 PM